Saddle's Blog for January 14th, 2010

I'm not feelin' too good about myself today.

First off, I was "sick" so I got to stay home and work on projects. I started an essay for social studies. I have 1,027 words so far and I'm on the 4th page, but I don't think I'm even close to done. It's about Theodore Roosevelt, and I just started talking about his presidency. And I have to finish that, and then write about post presidency and memorials and such. Then do a poster. Oh goody. xP I'm glad my teacher changed the due date from tomorrow to Tuesday.

I'm almost done with my art project. I'm just putting everything on the poster now. It's kinda boring, and I don't know what my teacher's looking for. I don't know how well I'm gonna do.

Starting tomorrow, things for me are busybusybusy:
Friday the 15th: Beginning of math midterm, art project presentation, get missed work, dance at night
Saturday the 16th, Sunday the 17th, Monday the 18th: Work on project, clean my room, church (and possibly CCD) Sunday
Tuesday the 19th: Social studies project due/presentation, baton at night
Wedesday the 20th, Thursday the 21st: Talk to guidance counceler (sp?), get camera and other stuffs ready for social, I think Girl Scouts Wednesday
Friday the 22nd: Wake up super duper early to take shower, get nails done with friend right after school, get my hair done after nails, come home and put on dress and shoes and make up and other stuffs, social, possibly dinner afterwards

So yea, it's gonna be interesting how things turn out.

I don't know why, but I started feeling really depressed today. I realized that I don't have many friends and I'm too shy to try to make new ones. My one really good friend is like perfect and she's gonna have a perfect life and be able to follow her dreams and everything. She's basically opposite me cuz everything she is or she's good at, I'm not or aren't. My family life isn't too great cuz there's always screaming and fighting. Nothing ever goes my way. I'm basically completely ignored, except for my friends, no matter where I go, even Facebook. I'm probably gonna need therapy one day cuz I can never think of anything positive about myself. I'm so self centered and selfish and concieted that it's starting to scare me. I procrastinate way too much.

So, now that I've finished complaining about myself like I always do, it's time to go finish my art project.

Adios,
Saddle

Aw, Saddle, you have us! *huggles* You're amazing! Never think like that! You're a great and wonderful and random friend! TWIG isn't the same without you!

What Amanda said. And, if people are ignoring you, they're not worth your time. Just focus on living your life and enjoying it, and everything will be better. I'm still praying for your family . . . I hope things get better. *huggle*

Thanks