Before It Hails

by DiscardedHarmony 5/17/2010, 4:58 pm

there was something, i promise. there was a smell, like before a
thunder storm, and lightning caressed our eyes. i know i scooped my
heart out and tucked the tangled mass of arteries into your hand,
whispering that we would be forever and a year together. i remember the
moment you said let's run away and roll ourselves into the moss-covered
hills and we will never have to go back.

i remember i almost said yes

i know there was a light, like the glow of a match just after you blow it
out, when it will still sear your hand. your eyes always reminded me of
the color of the sky just before it hails, just before everything
tumbles on top of you. you were like that, too. the before, never the
after. you were the one tucking ice cubes down my back and making me
laugh one.more.time. you weren't the forever and a year.

i remember you said this was only paper

you were always grazing your fingers over my bruises, pondering. i asked
you what and you said nothing, but i've learned to never believe you. i
always thought this was beautiful, lying while the grass grows around
us, smiling smiles that are wrong while the faeries manipulate our
words, telling each other that forever is a lie and today is all we
have.

i remember my pages were filled with you

there was a nothing and silence and i thought maybemaybe it wouldn't be.
there was a lull and i realized we were a bandage over wounds that healed long ago.

and the lightning was all me wanting.
wanting to believe.