Saddle's Blog for 3/6/10 ~ I don't really know what to write about xD

So I don't think my mom cares -- or remembers -- about my room banishment anymore.

There's a whole buncha stuff I said about Juice on the Crusher's Club. xD

This is random, and about Derek:
About a week ago, apparently Janelle said something to him or whatever that made him all mad and such and he said to me, "Give me a list of things that can hurt u. Im such a ****** ****** and ****** and i dont care bout anyone. So i wanna try and change blah" (words starred out by me cuz they're....Twig inappropriate) and I said, "Huh?" and then he said, "Just plz do it. i jus dont wanna fight. and feel free tn put me down" (I think he meant 'to') and we were just discussing that for a while. So today, this was our conversation:
Me: Hey, remember like a week ago when you said to make a list of things that hurt me or whatever?
Derek: Yeah
Me: Well i finally made that list. I basically said "i hate" for everything, but they fall under the same category
Derek: Ok wat?
Me: Ik youre either gonna ignore it or say its all not true, but i'll send it
Me: I hate when you ignore me. And i hate when you always make up excuses when i ask why. I hate when you lie to me and how you act like my friend only half the time. I hate feeling like im the only one of us actually trying to be friends again. When tori or someone says something bad about you, i try to defend you and say that youre nice, but later you ignore me ((I meant to add here: 'and i wonder if i should have defended you' but i forgot)). I hate constantly feeling like im annoying and thats the reason youre ignoring me. But most of all, i hate thinking about how things used to be and wondering what changed.....
Derek: Hm i c
Me: Yeah

So I guess we'll see what Derek does now. The ball's in his court. (Wooooow, did I really just use a phrase my dad uses all the time???)

I feel like a lazy sack a lot. Just sayin.

*pops lips* Well, I don't know what to say now. I shall end this, I presume.

Adios,
Saddle

Aww, good luck with Derek. I hope he can take your words to heart!

Thanks, Shadow. I hope so, too. Although, it took him a while to get that I hated being called a Jew and 'Cracky the Crackhead'....I had to wear a cross necklace for like 3 months and change my contact name in his phone before he got the hint. He can be such an idiot, sometimes. xP

Meh, boys can be like that.

Yeah