I shouldn't listen to taylor swift anymore. D: 19.4.10

by **FOREIGN?!** 4/19/2010, 3:28 pm

prepare for sad nostalgia-ness.

Okay, so, last year I was completely and utterly obsessed with Taylor Swift. Well, I still am-ish, but not as much. Now I just sort of revere her kick apple song writing skills. And I sorta hate her because she's so good at it. ANYWHAYS back then she was the only thing I listened to. And last year had a lotta sadness in it. So pretty much every song on her first album has a sad memory to it. I made the mistake of listening to it again. Now I'm all sad and nostalgic-ey. Oh, and I use that word too much because of Owl City. Just to let you know. xD
you cry, but you don't tell anyone, you might not be the golden one. and you're tied together with a smile but you're coming undone.

you just see right through me, but if you only knew me, we could be a beautiful, miracle, unbelievable. instead of just invisible.

Invisible was the next song. Even though the whole song doesn't relate to me, really, the chorus does. It reminds me of Chad. It reminds me of that day on the beach when we played soccer in the sand, and you were sort of laughing because I was making our little stick-in-the-sand-goals totally out of proportion and I didn't even realize it. And then I blushed. And then we played and I kept kicking you on accident and felt really bad about it but you just laughed. And I felt happy- I think. And then I remember when we were on the beach and I was sitting on my towel and you were skin boarding and you looked at me and for practically the first time ever, I didn't look away. And then it started to rain and we had to walk back to everyone else, and while we were walking across the bridge neither of us said anything. I think I'm going mad, but I felt like you were trying to say something, but couldn't find the words. And now I haven't seen you in months, practically, except for that one day when you were fishing on the pier. And the only time you saw me was when you came back to the park for water, and you looked at me, and I felt pretty. Oh dear, I have gone mad, because I just wrote this whole thing like you- I mean, he- would read it. I'm so hopeless.

so how can I ever try to be better? nobody ever lets me in, I can still see you, this ain't the best view, on the outside looking in.

The Outside came on next. Oh dear, my iPod is trying to kill me. This reminds me of having barely any friends, and always feeling awkward, and always being known as 'that girl who was at the dance who got chased around by Pat all night because she was "just that homeschooled girl"'. Actually, I think I was known as "just that homeschooled girl", but to some of the guys I was known as the first one. Bleh. Men. Haha. But I was really a social wreck back then. I still am, I guess, but I've gotten a little better because Ave has forced me to talk to people. xD Back on topic. This song makes me remember lying on my bed on friday night, wondering what other girls where doing besides playing cards with their families and then going to bed at 9:30. Then I remember soccer practice where everyone was talking about school, and I just laughed and nodded because no one cared to explain it to me. Then I remember having this song on repeat and reading the Harry Potter books over and over again because I was so bored. I read the Order of the Pheonix eight times, dontcha know?

no use defending words that you will never say. and now that I'm sitting here thinking it through, I've never been anywhere cold as you.

I shouldn't listen to taylor swift anymore. D: 19.4.10 Tumblr_l0rc6tHJ5v1qzyrwvo1_500

by **Avé** 4/19/2010, 4:00 pm

Kick apple and jack donkey? Niiiice. xD

Anyway. Oh my god, I know how you feel. Nostalgia buddies? Yeees. I get what you mean about Lauren. She was so fun, and now she's so... meh. Different.

Aw, Chad... :/ Forrey, you seriously need to tell him how you feel. You're lucky; you've known him for forever and guess what? You might never talk to him again once he leaves this year. I know how that feels, and trust me, it's not gonna be pretty. You remember me! Crying 'bout S every time White Horse came on. You don't want to end up like that, do you? xP

"That girl who was at the dance who got chased around by Pat all night because she was "just that homeschooled girl". Aww, Pat. <33 But that actually is how MT described you. Well, the Pat part.

Taylor reminds me so much of Marie. >_> They should seriously go out.

Duuuude. I was about to yell at you for not putting the play list on autoplay, because I didn't even notice it until I scrolled down, but then I realized my volume was down all the way. XD

A kitty! Meow. :3

by **FOREIGN?!** 4/19/2010, 4:28 pm

I know, right? ^^

Nostalgia buddies; I like the ring of that. nod

Lauren. D:

'Cept there are a million-thousand relationships that are ruined ever year because they get emotions and all that stuffs involved too soon and then end up not being friends no more. Scientifically proven.

That sounds like something MT would do. *-*

EW. EW. EW. EW. EW. NO. NO. NO. Cuz he's heartless. How could you be so heartless...? oh. how could you be so heartleeeeesssss? xD

Smoooth. xD

meowmeowmeow. C:

by **Avé** 4/19/2010, 4:32 pm

And there a million-thousand hearts that are broken every year because they don't share how they really feel and regret it after the person has left. Ave-tifically proven.

by **FOREIGN?!** 4/19/2010, 4:38 pm

50% OF THE KOOKABURRA COMMUNITY GET BROKEN HEARTS EVERY YEAR BECAUSE THEIR FRIEND KOOKABURRA RUINED THEIR KOOKABURRA RELATIONSHIP WITH THEIR KOOKABURRA FEELINGS. FORREIGNTIFICALLY PROVEN. nod

by **shadowsowner888** 4/19/2010, 4:49 pm

Aww, Forry, that all sucks. (I would be about to cry right now, but I'm listening to Fred while I read this and hear Taylor, so . . . the effect was ruined. ^^; Eh hehehe . . .) Taylor Swift really does have sad songs like that, doesn't she? :/ I'm sorry that you're feeling like this. Sometimes you just gotta listen to stuff like Owl City instead. Or Weeeek! Weeeek is a very happy song.

by kaseythegiraffe 4/19/2010, 6:57 pm

That suckss.
Trust me, I know about sad pasts. And presents. And futures.
If you need anyonee to talk to, i'm here.

by minimaid 4/19/2010, 9:50 pm

I relate to all you said girlie.

:/

by **FOREIGN?!** 4/19/2010, 10:25 pm

Shadow: Great, you ruined the effect. xD Yes, she does. nod

I've actually been listening to the Offspring all day; it's helped. Very Happy

Kasey: Aw, thanks. Smile

Mini: Maybe we could start a club or something. Hmm..

by minimaid 4/19/2010, 11:37 pm

A club for depressed people with no friends? IAMEXCITE.

by **FOREIGN?!** 4/20/2010, 8:38 am

OHGOSHTHATSOUNDSIMMACULATE. We could call it... the club for depressed people with no friends. nod

by <3--[Emily]--<< 4/22/2010, 5:16 pm

One of the reason's why Taylor Swift is so famous is because you can relate to her songs so much. And look, almost everyone on here's 'story of my life songs' includes taylor swifts. Sorry if I start randomely typing Taylor Swift lyrics; I'm listening to her and that tends to happen.

As for Lauren, I'm sure she misses you to. If the surgeon stuff bothers you then you could just politely ask her to not bring it up around you, since you have a weak stomach. And I'm sure Lauren doesn't want things to be awkward, so my suggestions is that you entirely avoid that topic unless she brings it up. Just pretend like nothing happened and put a huge effort into being her friend again. You guys were best friends and now that her father's dead, she needs a best friend more than ever. (: