Re: Diary of The Middle Sister

by **Nightowl** 9/16/2009, 2:08 pm

Make that six for team Clevin! Very Happy

by **Akeria** 9/16/2009, 4:23 pm

Lol, thank you Sparrow. Smile

by **Noah the Flood** 9/16/2009, 4:33 pm

When you gona write more? xD

by **Akeria** 9/16/2009, 4:39 pm

I was working on my other story. Don't be pushy. Razz

Lol. I'm working on it right now. Though I'm getting distracted by my friend Nicole.

*Pushes Nicole out a window*

Now I can concentrate. Very Happy

by **Noah the Flood** 9/16/2009, 4:42 pm

Sorrryyyyy...xD
Yayyy xDD
I really like this story. Its really good..I'd buy it if you published it xD

by **Akeria** 9/16/2009, 4:59 pm

Thanks!

UGH! It's finished, however... there are random "/" everytime there's an apostrophe... which is really irritating. Gah! Just ignore them, please. Smile

by **shadowsowner888** 9/16/2009, 6:03 pm

Nuuu!

That's sad! I wanna cry . . . poor Phoebe . . . Psh, why hadn't I already had this reaction? xD

by **Akeria** 9/16/2009, 6:03 pm

I dunno... Maybe you is slow? Merci though.

by **Noah the Flood** 9/16/2009, 6:10 pm

Thats so sad Sad

I hope she is okay!

by **Akeria** 9/16/2009, 6:13 pm

Maybe.

Diary of The Middle Sister - Page 4 983495

by **shadowsowner888** 9/16/2009, 6:37 pm

Lol, probably. xD

Oh, and btw - TEAM CLEVIN FTW! Very Happy

by **Akeria** 9/16/2009, 6:39 pm

Aha. I'm making the badges this weekend, when I have time.

by **shadowsowner888** 9/16/2009, 6:44 pm

Pwnsome.

by **Akeria** 9/16/2009, 6:45 pm

Tee hee.

*Announcement... Kinda.

Go check out Severance! Linkie in my siggie! (I rhymed... ew.)

by **shadowsowner888** 9/16/2009, 6:56 pm

Haha, nice, about the rhyme part. And I've read it! nod

by catbuster 9/17/2009, 3:58 pm

Akeria wrote: Please, Shadow. Lol.

And thank you catbuster. (Is there a nickname you would prefer?)

you can call me cat!

by **Akeria** 9/17/2009, 4:39 pm

Aright.

by catbuster 9/19/2009, 4:52 pm

when are we getting more Akeria?? When!

by **Akeria** 9/20/2009, 8:52 am

[1.3.09]
It's Sunday. Sunday, January third. Wow. A lot of time has passed since I started this diary. Nearly six months, though I haven't exactly kept up with keeping it every few days. It's almost halfway through the pages though. I guess that's what happens when you write really long diary posts.

I kind of feel like I've changed since that first post. Diaries aren't "Fairy Princess Happy" No. They're a place to collect your thoughts, and Mom was right. That's what I needed, a place to collect my thoughts. Especially with all that's happening Phoebe. I really need a place that I can write that down, while on the inside I'm praying for her.

Phoebe is still in the ICU (Intensive Care Unit) at the hospital. She's trying a new experimental treatment for her leukemia. Though, I don't know what it's called, and I'm sure that even if I did, I wouldn't be able to spell it...

Kevin came over the other day. We talked for a while. Just talked. It was nice. He told me that he's still sad over what happened with Emma, and he visits her grave every week, bringing flowers. He says that he sits in her room sometimes, hoping that maybe she'll drive her car back to the house. He told me that his parents gave him the car, but he can't bring himself to drive, even though his sixteenth birthday is in less than a month. He's upset, I can tell... I feel horrible, not knowing how to fix that. But yet, he wishes that Phoebe won't die, so I won't have to go through this same terrorizing agony that he's going through.

I believe him. Phoebe won't die. She's too strong a girl, and she's got waaaaay too quirky a personality. She'll make it. I know she will, and I'm still praying.

So, yesterday, I had Sydney drive me to church. It's at night, church is. I love it so much, but I haven't been since Emma's accident. Though, that's probably the main reason I should go. Anyway. I walked in, and the place was more lively than I remember. I spotted my friend Emily (I love her. She saved Akeria, my dog, when she was a puppy searching through the trash. She brought her to me, knowing that she didn't have the money to save her. Emily's family is very poor. She's on the "free lunch" program at school because her Mom's income is so low and her Dad died when she was little.) She came right up to me and gave me a huge hug, and told me the best thing, "I'm glad that you're back."

Oh, and was she right. I was glad I was back too.

My church is different. It's enormous, partially because it's a school, but the "services" are held in the auditorium. There's a stage there, with a rock band set up. That's our band, and that's what we do. We sing, we talk about the bible. Then there's INK'D* which is like the youth group I used to go to. I'm rejoining that too. I miss it all, and I'm glad to be back.

Emily tells me that she's in my lunch period now, and she'll deffinitely be joining our table, now that Jake, Kevin and Maggie are back. It's a full-ish table. (And Lauren told me that she's got a boyfriend now, so I have a feeling that he'll be joining too.)

I love Emily. She's one of my best friends, and I haven't seen her since before the summer. Now, here we are, on Sunday, when I just got home from church, and that's the first time I've seen her. Well, I guess I'll see her from now on.

What else happened... Oh, did I tell you how my day went with Jake? That was a few days ago.

We went to Mario's (best pizza place in the world) and each ordered a slice, though Jake's was more like an entire pizza... Anyway, he told me how he was sorry too, that it wasn't fair to break up with me at such a strange time, when I was still getting upset over the thing with Emma, and Phoebe had just gotten sick. It wasn't a good time for me... Really. And then he broke up with me. The one thing that I had going well, and he took it away. Poof, and it was gone. Of course, he didn't know that Kevin had said the exact same thing to me earlier that month...

He told me that he thinks I'm a good person, and that he's glad I called, and then he asked me if I wanted to get back together.

Did I?

I still kind of liked him, but... I don't know... There was just something about him that made me feel like at a moments notice, if I was upsetting him, he'd leave again. For some reason, I began to perseve our relationship as being controlled to make him look good. I mean, no I wasn't a cheerleader, but I was a swimmer, a dancer, I could out-run him in track (though occasionally he did beat me...) and I could sing. I am pretty talented... and I'm completely grateful for that. I'm not boasting or anything, but thank God for my talents. Anyway, I guess I saw my relationship with him as continuing to be him trying to out-shine me. We were more competitive than in love...

I told him that I really wasn't ready for a relationship, which is true, I'm not. I'm still trying to get my life back in order. And I told him that I didn't think it was such a good idea. He seemed slightly taken aback, but he got over it and shook my hand as Sydney came to pick me up and drive me home.

I think I know now that I don't like Jake anymore. Which is good. I think it's healthier for me to get over him and move on.

I start school again tomorrow, and my dance life, and homework life come back. Scary thought. But I have to do better in school. I have to.

-Claire.

by **shadowsowner888** 9/20/2009, 11:58 am

Awesome new part! Very Happy

by **Akeria** 9/20/2009, 12:04 pm

Why thank you.

by **Arianna** 9/20/2009, 12:05 pm

Yep, cool part. Even though I really hope that Phoebe won't die. Sad

by **Noah the Flood** 9/20/2009, 12:20 pm

Awesome new part Very Happy

by **Akeria** 9/20/2009, 6:42 pm

Thanks everyone. Smile

by catbuster 9/21/2009, 10:36 pm

cool new part Akeria I hope pheobe is ok!

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