Re: Just Words

by DiscardedHarmony 1/24/2010, 4:16 pm

Harmony's eyes grew soft and she placed her arm around Shadow's shoulders. "Don't worry", she whispered softly, "Nobody has to be alone. You'll find that person eventually." The corners of the previously flat line of her mouth curled upwards, but her arm remained on Shadow's shoulders. "Glad you liked it!", she intoned.
(When did this turn into an RP thread? <.<)

by **shadowsowner888** 1/25/2010, 7:45 pm

Not RP, necessarily. ^^ Just live writing - check out fleamailman's introduction thread to see a decent explanation of it. (I'd still be doing it, actually, but today I'm in a hurry. ^^ Wink

Anywho . . . I hope so. xD Lol, I'm glad I liked it, too.

by DiscardedHarmony 1/28/2010, 10:13 pm

Ah. That was... a very interesting thread. I'd like to see what else he's going to post. rolleyes

Little Girl:

I slit the throat of my emotions,
watched them spill crimson on the alabaster snow.
A glint in my eye,
a memory of what I had slain.
Never wanting to reclaim it.
Faded and worn,
just a ghost of what should have been,
I'm chasing them down,
'till the blood runs knee-deep.
I never wanted you to see this,
just hide your eyes now, little girl.
The slaughter of one's heart,
is not a sight for precious tiny you.
Run away now, little girl,
as the dying wails caress your ears.
Shriveled corpses of the warriors,
lay broken around your feet.
I put a gun to Love's head,
gave it the privilege of last words,
but you were not meant to witness,
what was not meant to occur.
Now the snow-white floor is stained,
and on your heart remains a blemish.
I hung Faith and Hope from the trees,
the skeleton trees.
Now your tender neck is flawed,
and your eyes carry the memory of what you saw.
Little girl, why did you not heed my words?
Because now it's too late to hide your eyes,
and forever imprinted, my deed is,
on your ever so innocent heart.

Hm, didn't turn out quite like I wanted, but oh well... undecided

by **shadowsowner888** 1/29/2010, 5:32 pm

That's good! ^^ It's so literal, for talking about a thing as vague as emotions.

by DiscardedHarmony 2/3/2010, 6:01 pm

Yeah, I was trying to make it a bit more... tangible. Thankies! ^^

Dreams:

Rain drops falling on my head.

Sun beams playing through my window.

Snow flakes covering the ground.

Your fingers entangling in mine.

And the dreams that float,

above the mountain tops,

haunt me forever more.

by DiscardedHarmony 2/3/2010, 6:52 pm

And All I Can Do Is Breathe (An okay title, I don't like it much...):

And my tongue is tied in a knot,
and my teeth chatter, I'm oh, so cold.
But my heart is still.
Stiller then a stone.
And my breath gets caught,
somewhere between lies and truth.
And the legs I once called my own,
now lie on the floor with my soul.

And I'm breathing.
Just breathing.
'Cause that's all I can do since you found me.
And that's all I can do since you held me.
Breathe and hope,
breathe and hope,
it will never end.

And my head is spinning oh so fast,
I can't think.
Make this room stop moving,
I can't see.
And my arms are made of rubber,
and my ears refuse to hear.
All I see are the inner workings,
of what used to be my heart.

And I'm breathing.
Just breathing.
'Cause that's all I can do since you found me.
And that's all I can do since you held me.
Breathe and hope,
breathe and hope,
it will never end.

My blood runs thick and cold,
honey coating my veins.
Honey, my heart won't beat.
Muscles trying and failing,
moving and staying still.
And my movement is caught,
between my honor and your words.
And I have no grasp on me anymore.

And I'm breathing.
Just breathing.
'Cause that's all I can do since you found me.
And that's all I can do since you held me.
Breathe and hope,
breathe and hope,
it will never end.

And I'm lying here,
wondering where you've been.
As my lungs work,
but myself won't.

And I'm breathing,
Just breathing.
'Cause that's all I can do since you found me.
And that's all I can do since you held me.
Breathe and hope,
breathe and hope,
it will never end

.
Breathing,
and hoping you never leave.

by **shadowsowner888** 2/3/2010, 7:21 pm

Dreams is beautiful! Surprised

I was expecting it to be one of those 'awww! ^^' poems, but at the end it was hauntingly sad.

And All I Can Do is Breathe has a cool name. ^^ It's a little long, sure, but I like it. Then the poem itself is awesome. It would make a really epic song. Very Happy

by DiscardedHarmony 2/3/2010, 7:39 pm

Hah, yuss! I was singing it in my head while I was writing it. I'd like to actually sing it, but I'm too scared of frighting the closest animals. xD

by **shadowsowner888** 2/3/2010, 8:24 pm

Aw, come on, I'm sure you're not that bad. :3 Try anyway!

by DiscardedHarmony 2/9/2010, 2:30 pm

Naah, I'm clinically tone-deaf ;D

One More Time:

The mirror is sneering

again.

She's screaming in her head

again.

The vomit's burning in her throat

again.

Her ribs are showing

again.

But she's still not content.
She's still whimpering in the corner,
berated by the constant stream of hissed threats in her mind.

She's slamming her head into the wall

again.

People are staring

again.

She's huddled over the toilet

again.

Her legs are too weak to hold her

again.

Maybe if she screams back,
the voice in her head will vanish.
Maybe this will all fly away.

She's not satisfied with her reflection

again.

Family dinners are scorned

again.

She's wondering if she'll ever be thin

again.

Her eyes are filled with tattered blood-vessels

again.

People ask her if she's lost weight,
and she feels good for a moment,
thinking it was all worth it, and she finally looks fabulous.

But then she feels like hiding

again.

She feels ugly, worthless, empty

again.

And she feels like dying

again.

But this doesn't have to be,
for
there
is
hope
for
her
again.

by **shadowsowner888** 2/9/2010, 2:49 pm

*shakes head* It's just sad, the things some people do to themselves. ._. You did a really good job of portraying that!

by DiscardedHarmony 2/9/2010, 2:50 pm

I know... That was inspired by a friend of mine. Makes me shudder, but I felt like writing it. Thank you! o:

by DiscardedHarmony 2/14/2010, 12:03 am

Missing Your Memory:

Mauling my pillow in an attempt to forget.
Involving everyone but myself.
Sighing for no reason.
Slipping notes under your door.
Integrating the memory of you into everything I touch.
Never letting my grasp slip.
Glimpsing you and feeling the wall build higher.

Yelping in protest as you slip away.
Offering my soul for your return.
Using your memory as a bandage.
Reveling in every distracted moment.

Mouthing your name until my lips are numb.
Eating nothing, but drinking the sight of your face.
Melting into my day-dreams.
Obedience slips away as I fall faster.
Radical changes are starting to be noticed.
You never even said goodbye.

by DiscardedHarmony 2/14/2010, 12:07 am

My Chemical Day-Dream:

Inside my chemical day-dream,
my fears evaporated and my doubts were crushed.
I grew wings,
light wings,
on my feet.
My hair flowing,
I never felt so perfect as in my chemical day-dream.
My eyes drift closed,
filled with colorful images of untold wonders.
And wondering,
when they will become reality,
I sleep.
This is all the perfection I need;
just my acidic fantasies
and the flighty hopes trapped behind my eyelids.
I found love,
trust,
hope,
faith,
all my wishes.
In my chemical day-dream,
I found you.
But all dreams end.
But my castle in the air came tumbling down.
But all my money was on the wrong reality.
But you weren't real.
And my chemical day-dream wasn't so perfect anymore.

by **shadowsowner888** 2/14/2010, 9:24 am

Missing Your Memory: Awww. D= Poor person. I like that for once I can understand the connection between the bolded words and the normal ones. xD Usually I don't have the capacity.

My Chemical Day Dream: I think that's how I feel sometimes. x3 Sweet job.

by DiscardedHarmony 2/15/2010, 9:38 pm

Woot, go Shad! ;D
Yeah, most dreams are better then reality... Thanks again! Very Happy

Your Own Reason:
I believe the meaning is;
there is no meaning.
I believe the point is;
there is no point.
You live for yourself,
and the world has to deal with it.
There is no reason to live;
you must find your own.
The point has dulled.
The blade must be sharpened.
The rose has wilted.
The sun is fading.
And you must stand amongst it all.
The buildings will fall.
Your heart will break.
The rain must storm.
And dew covers the ground.
But you must stand amongst it all.
The world breaks,
and you must find your own reason to rebuild it.

Ehhh, just thoughts, I don't like it much..

by **shadowsowner888** 2/15/2010, 10:46 pm

Your Own Reason offers an interesting perspective on life. nod

I like it.

by DiscardedHarmony 2/18/2010, 2:29 pm

Interesting perspectives ftw! Very Happy

Up Or Down:
I'm through with walking on broken glass.
Tired of eggshells littering the floor.
Sick of holding my breath,
while my lungs bruise purple.
I must break,
one way or another.
Lacerations tenderize my feet.
Lines of words march off my tongue,
composed as not to irritate you.
My face still stings,
from when you slapped me with your eyes.
I must break,
one way or another.
Black or white.
Up or down.
Fall or grow wings.
Release this breath,
or never take another.
Either way,
true or false,
wherever I fall,
you're coming with.

by **shadowsowner888** 2/18/2010, 2:59 pm

Sweetness. Very Happy

You wanna know what my favorite line is? "Fall or grow wings." Yush. nod

Cus we both know I love wings. xD

by DiscardedHarmony 2/24/2010, 1:30 am

Hah, yes you do ;3

Noise:
Everything I stood for,
everything I am,
left my body,
with my breath.
And those words that I spoke,
and those lies that I told,
broke down,
all the things I fought for.
That's what this entire dance of hearts is built on,
a foundation of ever-changing lies,
and false assurances that it will all be okay.
But we're too consumed,
by these ravaging words.
Too caught up in the mockery to realize,
this is all just noise.
It's to fill up the silence,
bridge the gap,
between your heart and mine.
'Cause these plastic smiles are haunting,
as these plastic lies consume us.

And it's only partially your fault that I'm suffocating in the midst of all you built for us.

Memories:
I wonder,
what it would feel like,
to actually feel anything at all.
I wonder,
if you came back,
what you would say,
when you knew what you did to me.
And maybe,
you'd be sorry,
but I doubt it as I piece together my sanity.
And perhaps,
your eyes would soften,
and you'd laugh like you used to,
with the corners of your eyes crinkling
and the melody of your happiness surrounding me like a blanket.
Your head thrown back,
and my lips thirsting to taste the joyful tears
that run down your cheeks.
But then I shake my head,
leaving these fantasies far behind in my childish past.
You are changed.
I realize this as you grate against the fabric of my being,
that one you tore.
Don't you remember?
I wonder,
if you came back,
would you die at my feet in repentance?
Or would you claw at the shreds of my thoughts?
Maybe you want what you left behind.
Maybe you need to take back my independence,
the one that I regained when you left me alone.
Or maybe you'd just walk the line,
between love and the blindness you never took back.
These are the things I wonder;
would you apologize;
would I forgive you;
are you coming back at all?

by DiscardedHarmony 2/24/2010, 3:32 pm

Waking Up:
The spider webs of scarlet,
drape across my neck,
enveloping and eating me from the inside out.
As the spiders drag my entrails across the floor,
I wonder at the state of my sanity.
My fingers look distorted,
like ones from fairy tales,
and not belonging to me at all.
My neck feels stiff,
like someone removed it,
and put a marble one in its stead.
They're crawling,
on my hands and toes,
over my eyelashes,
and down the curves of my legs.
Dragging the broken bits of me,
to the HEAVEN! for which I am known.
Arachnids creeping,
until they draw ebbing screams from my throat.
Such a strange morning.

I wrote that at 4am this morning, so don't expect me to know what it means xD

by **shadowsowner888** 2/24/2010, 5:25 pm

Yay!

Epic, epic job. I especially like Memories! ^^ You always do such a good job with poetic detail.

by DiscardedHarmony 2/24/2010, 7:52 pm

Tehe, thank you, even though "always" is a bit all-encompassing, and a wee bit inaccurate. Embarassed

Oh, that's interesting; I didn't notice before that you can't say HEAVEN!. :3

The Song Of The Haunted:
In this sweet
madness, this
organized release,
the truth
is scrambled like
eggs.
But why
search for it? Languishing in
this pool of
self-indulgence; wandering down
lanes from which I may never return; but it's oh
so fun to
play with your heartstrings.
Glinting,
piercing,
burning eyes. The wonder of
the flesh embodied. Lies are
my food,
my air,
my water; everything I need to
continue with this path to the end. My eyes
flutter closed, as I drink
in the scent of sweet death. My
every wish fulfilled, now
my head will break the surface.

Heh, I'm just in a gothic, dark writing mood lately. Razz

by **shadowsowner888** 2/24/2010, 8:00 pm

xD I don't think so. I think always is the perfect word.

Lol, I know in some circumstances it's not a bad word, but all the same it's censored. xD Yeah.

I like it! Very Happy

by DiscardedHarmony 2/24/2010, 8:04 pm

But I'm not always amazing. xD
Tehe, oh well. You know what I meant to say. Razz

Thank you! o: I think I write better when I place myself outside of the situation. 'Cause that one wasn't written from my perspective, and I seem to do better with that... Words are such fun xD Meh, I should stop rambling now... o.o

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