The General's Journal 03(31(10

Well, today's the last day b'fore the new month.

I'm kinda upset, because we have this break, and I don't have to do any schoolwork, and it's making everything suck.

See, because Easter is soon, we have this break. And because of this break, I'm getting in this really lazy mood, where I feel I should be doing something instead of nothing, and I have more hours in the day to fill up. And it's making everyday feel all bleah.

See, because Shad' and I have a break, the younger kids are slacking outside, and mom is getting really mad at them for not doing their schoolwork, and it's all coming around at Shad' and I. freakin'.

And because mom is getting mad, dad's getting mad, and I hate when he's mad, 'cause he ceases to be the father I know, he just becomes a really mad dude I'm afraid of. And he's also getting mad at Shad' and I.

But today is turning out better, so far. and I would be so relieved I have a chance to feel at home, feel good, actually do something with friends, at band this Thursday, except for the freakin' fact that we don't have band this week 'cause it's gonna be in the Easter triduum. (sp?) So tommorrow, and the day after, probably, and Saturday are all probably gonna suck. Because I'll be home all day, which equals a chance to get yelled at, forced to work, and all around have a bad day.

I want some food. Like popcorn chicken, frozen pizza and buritoes, pre-made juice, good snackoes, and etc. I wanna actually feel like life is good. I wanna be able to dive into my juice and chips and forget the world.

I'm weird, I know. But I'm my weird. xD

So, anyway, I wanted to write a song involving a train for the majority, 'cause I wanna just use eight notes over and over on my snare drum to make it sound like a train chugging along. So I came up with these cheesy lyrics about how some guy would be going on a train to see the girl of his dreams, blah blah, but then I thought to myself, what if she wasn't there?

So then I came up with a whole new plot. This guy is riding a train, and suddenly, he fantasizes over the idea that his dream girl could be waiting for him at the station. And then he thinks to himself, why not? After all, he must certainly be handsome. And then he thinks he logically puts it all together, all the stuff he'd seen her do, and comes to the conclusion that she does like him! So of course she'll be waiting at the station.

He'll get ahead of himself, and come to the point where he 'knows' she'll be waiting at the station, and he arrives, and guess what? She's not there.

Not so sure about the ending, but it might come to a happier note as he walks sadly away to wherever he was going in the first place. And you should not expect me to post it any time soon, 'cause I don't have lyrics, chords, or a tune yet.

I think that's all for now.

That song sounds like it will be pretty awesome. Post it on here when you're done, mmkay?

I plan to, but I might not end up for random reasons. Like self-consciensiousness, but that's all I can think of.

If you wanna do somethin', you can do what I do when I'm bored: set a totally random goal and then work on it till you acheive it! Last year during spring break, I was so bored I was trying to learn to write with my left hand (I'm a righty xD). It ended up failing, but I had something to do. xD

Ooooh, that song sounds cool!! Good luck writing it!

I wanna hear the song, too.

Sadd'- I should try something like that. xD

I got some lyrics, but I think they're too corny, so you'll have to wait a while if I post it at all.